Thanksgiving.Thankful.

Thanksgiving

What is your favorite holiday?  Mine is Thanksgiving.  Turkey Day.  It is the  holiday that I remember the most as a kid. My Mom was never the “good cook”.  As an adult, we have had many funny conversations about her cooking.  Come to find out she hated cooking.  Still does.  I remember when I moved out, my roommate introduced me to food things.  I never knew what garlic was.  Or an avocado.  We were the family that had the same thing on every Monday, Tuesday, etc.  Monday’s were always pork roast.  Every Monday.  My Mom’s tacos were horrible.  She browned meat and put a can of tomato sauce in it.  Nasty.  What kind of pizza did she order?  Hamburger.  Oh, with extra cheese.  Yes, hamburger with extra cheese.  This was my normal.  I knew nothing different.  Until I moved out.

Needless to say, I remember good “food” things about Thanksgiving.  My Mom made a good stuffing.  She actually stuffed the bird.  Her potatoes were lumpy.  Lumpy, but good.  My Dad started making them in about Middle School.  They were much better.  He was the better cook.  Still is.  He doesn’t cook much now, but he can still cook; good.  Our turkeys were always so good.  We ate for days. I would eat turkey, stuffing, cranberry sandwiches.  They were divine.  My Dad always bought the best bread, too.  The leftovers were the best.  I’m so thankful for these kind of memories.  I hold them close.

As I get older, I want to make sure my son has great memories.  Food, travel, etc.  I want him to hold those kind-of things close.

As I was at work today, my phone rang.  My Sisters name and number came up.  When your parents are my parents age, your not quite sure that is a good thing, or not.  She told me she was leaving the ER with our Dad.  My Mom had fallen and broke her nose and her arm.

I thank God every day for the good things in my life.  I am thankful.  I am fortunate.  My family and Friends make for a good life.

With Thanksgiving being tomorrow, I am thankful for so much GOOD.

Are You Up For A Challenge?

Are you up for a challenge?  Typically, I am not.  But, I am going to give it a try, starting Monday.  Monday as in, September 25, 2017.  Bah!  I’m nervous.  Scared and flat freaked out.  My Trainer is challenging me.  Against him.  Body Fat only.  Ewww.  Right?  But at least I don’t have to get on a scale.  Right?  I told my husband about it.  I asked him if he would cook for me.  He said, of course.  The challenge is 6 weeks.  Six weeks without coffee.  Can I really do THAT??!! No dairy.  I don’t drink much milk, but really?  No dairy?  I guess there will be no ice cream.  Dang…   I have unlimited workouts.  I wonder how many I will do.  I kick box Monday – Friday at 5am.  I also work out 2 to 3 more times during the week, at lunch, with my co-worker.  She keeps me sane and is a GREAT partner.   I would do it Saturday and Sunday to, but the gym is closed.  I think I am ready mentally, but 6 weeks?  Yikes.  –I will keep you posted…

It’s the Friday before the Challenge.  2.5 more days .  No sugar, no coffee, nothing processed, blah, blah, blah.  So what did I do?  I bought pizza for my office.  I’m not sure if I bought it just because or if it was something nice for what they have to encounter for the next 6 weeks.  Needless to say, the pizza was great.  On ward and up ward.

I’m not going to lie– this was my last H-O-O-R-A-H, from last night.  I even ate it late, too.  It actually made me happy.

Last_Meal_09242017

So, I’m on day three.  Day three.  Day one was easy, day two was horrible and three is fine.  Day two I did not eat any protein.  Lesson learned.  Very sluggish and hungry.  I feel good.  Work outs are going great.

Okay, how was week one?  Can I tell you I’m super glad its over?  I did not cheat.  At all.  I feel good.  But I was wiped out.  Super sleepy.  But my calorie intake was limited.  It was weird eating at home all week.  We are always on the fly and eat out a lot.  It was nice to eat at home–and it was so much better for me!!  Lesson learned.  I didn’t do any double workouts last week.  I couldn’t.  To wiped out.  I’m back on the program today.  I actually wasn’t going to, but as I was leaving today my Trainer says, “See you at lunch…?”  Ugg, REALLY??  I’ll be there at lunch.  The best thing about week one?  I lost 10 pounds.  10 pounds–now does that mean I wont lose anymore?  That seems like a lot.  I am still super committed.  As I came to work today, my co-worker gave me this perfect, pretty apple.  It made my day.

Apple WP

And, I’m not going to lie, it was FABULOUS!  Fresh, out of his orchard. Yum!

Week two has been much better!  I seem like I am back to my “normal” self.  Whatever that is.  My eating is going just fine.  Body is getting used to eating well.  I’m not as sleepy, etc.  I guess the thing I find the most interesting, is how your body feels when you do not eat anything processed.  Let’s face it–anything fast and easy, is what works the best, for most of us.  Having to actually make lunch and dinner E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y has been new.  I’m not going to say it has been a challenge, but it is new.  Time consuming.  Calvin has now decided after like 5 years he wants a home-packed lunch, too.  I do appreciate lunch and dinner much more.   It’s also funny how I now come home and immediately fix dinner.  I don’t want to wait around because I don’t want to eat late either.  It’s been fun doing this stuff.  We all have been taught this for years, but putting it together…??  I’m doing it and learning as I go.

I just started week 3.  Not bad.  The whole eating thing has become “normal”.  I don’t eat much anymore.  My body is not craving anything.  Food is just now something that I have to eat when I’m hungry.  I did weigh myself today.  I lost 1 pound.   I mean for eating nothing but cardboard it feels like I should have lost 15 pounds!  When I went in to the gym this morning I promptly told my Trainer that I had only lost a pound. His Protein Shake 1

response?  Why does it matter, you are not on a weight loss program.  Needless to say the work out was awesome and my head is in the game, and I am no longer weighing myself.  I will wait until I am done.  I feel really good and strong.

I have a Protein shake every other day-ish.  My favorite brand is this one -> Protein Milkshake. Do you see that flavor?  Yes, it is “Ice Cream Cake“.  Not only is it divine tasting, it is so, super creamy.  It’s like a real milkshake.  I also love “Cake Batter“. You need to go check them out on the web: http://www.proteinmilkshakebar.com

The one thing that I have learned on this Challenge is how important breakfast is.  I literally get up, work out, shower and eat oatmeal.  I have never been a breakfast person.  I mean, I like going out to breakfast and eating biscuits and gravy with a side of toast, but really…  Typically I go to work and wait until I am hungry and eat.  Yogurt, apple, banana, whatever.  Cereal.  Doughnuts; you name it.  Oatmeal has been my saving grace.  It instantly fills me up and pretty much sets me up for the day.  I make it with water-no milk and put a dab of brown sugar in it.  I’m pretty sure that is a mental thing.  Anyway, this is my new found fave.

Oatmeal

So, most of you know I am an EARLY BIRD.  I like early.  And by that I mean, I go to bed EARLY too…  Anyway, Monday-Friday, I get up at 4:15, get ready for the gym and I am out the door.  Workout by 5am.  It took me awhile to get here.  I’ve never worked out that early before-EVER.  Mentally, I always wanted to, physically, I could not get out of bed.  My Boss, who works out at 5am a couple of days a week told me, “Just do it.  Give yourself 2 weeks. You will never go back.”  I did it and will never go back.  If I could, I would go Saturday and Sunday, too.  When I started at 5, I knew NO ONE.  I was freaked out. Scared, I guess.  The week I committed, my Trainer was going to be gone the whole week due to a vacation.  Now I really knew no one.  However, Marcie, took me under her wing and made it happen for me.  She showed me how to do things I had never done before and made me feel welcome.  She is maybe a few years older than me and is TOUGH.  Strong.  She is one that counts perfectly, does everything exactly like it is supposed to be.  I look up to her.  I love her dedication.   She’s the one on the left.  This is the 5am crew.  All of us are here

5am_Crew
My Daily 5am. Accountability Crew

consistently.  5 am. is “our” time.  We get shit done.  Period.  We all like 5 am.  We are all Friends and help each other out.  When one of us is down, this troop brings you up.  I love these Peeps!  Can you not tell how much of a morning person Heath is?  He not only loves  mornings, he also LOVES having his picture taken.  **Heath is our Trainer (Owner) @ Chief Fitness; check him out at http://www.chieffitness30.com .  He truly has a passion for Kick-Boxing.

Most ask, “How did YOU get into kickboxing?”  It was actually something I had never thought about until a friend of mine at church had told me she was very interested in doing a self-defense class.  Hmmm, I thought…?  That might be fun.  It was a four day class that was so much fun.  Addy Hernandez from Ki Fighting Concepts  (www.kifightingconcepts.com), taught the class.  She is super fun and a total bad-ass.  She really opened my eyes to being strong.  I was then turned to start taking kick-boxing classes.  Steph Hersh taught them (at Ki Fighting) and she taught me what being strong means.  She’s a total bad-ass, too!  I met great people (Kathy Beck…) who I will be friends with for a long time.  Very thankful for what changed me.  I now kick-box every.single.day. at 5am. and then I try to do it a couple times a week, either at lunch or after work with my co-worker.  It makes me happy and accountable.  I really depend on my work-out crew.  We are all dedicated.

I’ve just started week 5.  WEEK 5!!  I can’t believe it.  I can’t believe I have not cheated–yet!  I’ve lost 18 pounds and feel GREAT!  I’m finally not “craving” food.  Yes, food-in general!  I seriously think about food when I am hungry.  That is good.  I still have not had coffee and that is the only thing that I know I will be having when this Challenge is over.  I miss my coffee “time”.  I’m sure coffee misses me, too!

So, just a reference–I have not been able to do a lot of walking lately due to my hurt foot.  As you may or may not know, my left ankle has been broken twice.  It ALWAYS hurts!  (**Thank You Heath for always giving me “other” options, instead of jumping!)  Due to this, I have been unable to do any “extra” walking, treadmill, etc.  I FINALLY went to the Foot Dr., who then made me go get a new orthotic.  I found out yesterday, as I used it for the first time, how strong I have gotten.  I got on the Tread and fast-walked a couple of miles.  Apple Music + the Tread is not such a bad thing.  It was actually pretty cool.  I’m understanding what it’s like to be strong.  Great feeling!

Okay, so going into week 6 was tough for me.  For the first three days, (of the 6th week) I was wanting to cheat.  I really don’t know why.  After the third day, it was fine.  I’m not sure what that was about.  The last weekend of the Challenge I was in Seattle — with my Best Friend — for the Garth Brooks Concert.  I was super scared I would cheat.  We ate glorious food, but I didn’t give in.  Unless, you consider the Coors Light that I drank at the concert.  I mean, who can say no to a beer at Garth?  I mean, really!  I never had a cheat meal.  I am probably the most proud of that.

As the Challenge is now over, I still have not gone crazy.  The Monday of my weigh in my co-worker was determined to make me my favorite dessert.  Her Pumpkin Roll-Up.  It is divine.  So I did have a piece of that, along with 1/2 of a Dutch Bros. Freeze and a slice of Tillamook Cheese.  It was all so good, however, what was weird and almost uncomfortable, was that I felt so full the rest of the day.  It had been a while since I felt like that.  Needless to say, I did not have dinner.

Pumpkin Roll
The Best Pumpkin Roll On The Planet

Dutch_Cheese

For the first time in my life I was mentally ready for this Challenge.  The hard part now, is not being so mental, if you will.  I am constantly asking myself–what will that do to my body if I eat that?  I’m not sure that is just something I will do from now on?  Will this go away?  Not sure.  It is a good tool, though.  I still have not had any bread and that is probably the one thing I am still not wanting.  The thought seems so filling…  In a not so good way.

You want to know what I missed the most??  C-O-F-F-E-E!!  You ask — Could you not drink coffee?  Yes, I could.  Black.  I don’t drink Black coffee.  I don’t like it.  So, why would I start drinking Black?  I put a little creamer in my coffee.  That’s how I like it.  This was my first Cup-O-Joe…

Coffee

Now that this has come to an end, why is it that I am thinking about the next Challenge?  The old Andrea would never think of that.  Here is to the next adventure!  Cheers!

Results You Ask?

In six weeks I lost 21.6 Pounds and 4.97% Body Fat.  I came in 2nd place and did beat my Trainer.

CF Bumper Sticker

Thanks Heath For All Of Your Help.  You Are So Appreciated.

 

 

Are You Up For A Challenge?

Are you up for a challenge?  Typically, I am not.  But, I am going to give it a try, starting Monday.  Monday as in, September 25, 2017.  Bah!  I’m nervous.  Scared and flat freaked out.  My Trainer is challenging me.  Against him.  Body Fat only.  Ewww.  Right?  But at least I don’t have to get on a scale.  Right?  I told my husband about it.  I asked him if he would cook for me.  He said, of course.  The challenge is 6 weeks.  Six weeks without coffee.  Can I really do THAT??!! No dairy.  I don’t drink much milk, but really?  No dairy?  I guess there will be no ice cream.  Dang…   I have unlimited workouts.  I wonder how many I will do.  I kick box Monday – Friday at 5am.  I also work out 2 to 3 more times during the week, at lunch, with my co-worker.  She keeps me sane and is a GREAT partner.   I would do it Saturday and Sunday to, but the gym is closed.  I think I am ready mentally, but 6 weeks?  Yikes.  –I will keep you posted…

It’s the Friday before the Challenge.  2.5 more days .  No sugar, no coffee, nothing processed, blah, blah, blah.  So what did I do?  I bought pizza for my office.  I’m not sure if I bought it just because or if it was something nice for what they have to encounter for the next 6 weeks.  Needless to say, the pizza was great.  On ward and up ward.

I’m not going to lie– this was my last H-O-O-R-A-H, from last night.  I even ate it late, too.  It actually made me happy.

Last_Meal_09242017

So, I’m on day three.  Day three.  Day one was easy, day two was horrible and three is fine.  Day two I did not eat any protein.  Lesson learned.  Very sluggish and hungry.  I feel good.  Work outs are going great.

Okay, how was week one?  Can I tell you I’m super glad its over?  I did not cheat.  At all.  I feel good.  But I was wiped out.  Super sleepy.  But my calorie intake was limited.  It was weird eating at home all week.  We are always on the fly and eat out a lot.  It was nice to eat at home–and it was so much better for me!!  Lesson learned.  I didn’t do any double workouts last week.  I couldn’t.  To wiped out.  I’m back on the program today.  I actually wasn’t going to, but as I was leaving today my Trainer says, “See you at lunch…?”  Ugg, REALLY??  I’ll be there at lunch.  The best thing about week one?  I lost 10 pounds.  10 pounds–now does that mean I wont lose anymore?  That seems like a lot.  I am still super committed.  As I came to work today, my co-worker gave me this perfect, pretty apple.  It made my day.

Apple WP

And, I’m not going to lie, it was FABULOUS!  Fresh, out of his orchard. Yum!

Week two has been much better!  I seem like I am back to my “normal” self.  Whatever that is.  My eating is going just fine.  Body is getting used to eating well.  I’m not as sleepy, etc.  I guess the thing I find the most interesting, is how your body feels when you do not eat anything processed.  Let’s face it–anything fast and easy, is what works the best, for most of us.  Having to actually make lunch and dinner E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y has been new.  I’m not going to say it has been a challenge, but it is new.  Time consuming.  Calvin has now decided after like 5 years he wants a home-packed lunch, too.  I do appreciate lunch and dinner much more.   It’s also funny how I now come home and immediately fix dinner.  I don’t want to wait around because I don’t want to eat late either.  It’s been fun doing this stuff.  We all have been taught this for years, but putting it together…??  I’m doing it and learning as I go.

I just started week 3.  Not bad.  The whole eating thing has become “normal”.  I don’t eat much anymore.  My body is not craving anything.  Food is just now something that I have to eat when I’m hungry.  I did weigh myself today.  I lost 1 pound.   I mean for eating nothing but cardboard it feels like I should have lost 15 pounds!  When I went in to the gym this morning I promptly told my Trainer that I had only lost a pound. His Protein Shake 1

response?  Why does it matter, you are not on a weight loss program.  Needless to say the work out was awesome and my head is in the game, and I am no longer weighing myself.  I will wait until I am done.  I feel really good and strong.

I have a Protein shake every other day-ish.  My favorite brand is this one -> Protein Milkshake. Do you see that flavor?  Yes, it is “Ice Cream Cake“.  Not only is it divine tasting, it is so, super creamy.  It’s like a real milkshake.  I also love “Cake Batter“. You need to go check them out on the web: http://www.proteinmilkshakebar.com

The one thing that I have learned on this Challenge is how important breakfast is.  I literally get up, work out, shower and eat oatmeal.  I have never been a breakfast person.  I mean, I like going out to breakfast and eating biscuits and gravy with a side of toast, but really…  Typically I go to work and wait until I am hungry and eat.  Yogurt, apple, banana, whatever.  Cereal.  Doughnuts; you name it.  Oatmeal has been my saving grace.  It instantly fills me up and pretty much sets me up for the day.  I make it with water-no milk and put a dab of brown sugar in it.  I’m pretty sure that is a mental thing.  Anyway, this is my new found fave.

Oatmeal

So, most of you know I am an EARLY BIRD.  I like early.  And by that I mean, I go to bed EARLY too…  Anyway, Monday-Friday, I get up at 4:15, get ready for the gym and I am out the door.  Workout by 5am.  It took me awhile to get here.  I’ve never worked out that early before-EVER.  Mentally, I always wanted to, physically, I could not get out of bed.  My Boss, who works out at 5am a couple of days a week told me, “Just do it.  Give yourself 2 weeks. You will never go back.”  I did it and will never go back.  If I could, I would go Saturday and Sunday, too.  When I started at 5, I knew NO ONE.  I was freaked out. Scared, I guess.  The week I committed, my Trainer was going to be gone the whole week due to a vacation.  Now I really knew no one.  However, Marcie, took me under her wing and made it happen for me.  She showed me how to do things I had never done before and made me feel welcome.  She is maybe a few years older than me and is TOUGH.  Strong.  She is one that counts perfectly, does everything exactly like it is supposed to be.  I look up to her.  I love her dedication.   She’s the one on the left.  This is the 5am crew.  All of us are here

5am_Crew
My Daily 5am. Accountability Crew

consistently.  5 am. is “our” time.  We get shit done.  Period.  We all like 5 am.  We are all Friends and help each other out.  When one of us is down, this troop brings you up.  I love these Peeps!  Can you not tell how much of a morning person Heath is?  He not only loves  mornings, he also LOVES having his picture taken.  **Heath is our Trainer (Owner) @ Chief Fitness; check him out at http://www.chieffitness30.com .  He truly has a passion for Kick-Boxing.

Most ask, “How did YOU get into kickboxing?”  It was actually something I had never thought about until a friend of mine at church had told me she was very interested in doing a self-defense class.  Hmmm, I thought…?  That might be fun.  It was a four day class that was so much fun.  Addy Hernandez from Ki Fighting Concepts  (www.kifightingconcepts.com), taught the class.  She is super fun and a total bad-ass.  She really opened my eyes to being strong.  I was then turned to start taking kick-boxing classes.  Steph Hersh taught them (at Ki Fighting) and she taught me what being strong means.  She’s a total bad-ass, too!  I met great people (Kathy Beck…) who I will be friends with for a long time.  Very thankful for what changed me.  I now kick-box every.single.day. at 5am. and then I try to do it a couple times a week, either at lunch or after work with my co-worker.  It makes me happy and accountable.  I really depend on my work-out crew.  We are all dedicated.

I’ve just started week 5.  WEEK 5!!  I can’t believe it.  I can’t believe I have not cheated–yet!  I’ve lost 18 pounds and feel GREAT!  I’m finally not “craving” food.  Yes, food-in general!  I seriously think about food when I am hungry.  That is good.  I still have not had coffee and that is the only thing that I know I will be having when this Challenge is over.  I miss my coffee “time”.  I’m sure coffee misses me, too!

So, just a reference–I have not been able to do a lot of walking lately due to my hurt foot.  As you may or may not know, my left ankle has been broken twice.  It ALWAYS hurts!  (**Thank You Heath for always giving me “other” options, instead of jumping!)  Due to this, I have been unable to do any “extra” walking, treadmill, etc.  I FINALLY went to the Foot Dr., who then made me go get a new orthotic.  I found out yesterday, as I used it for the first time, how strong I have gotten.  I got on the Tread and fast-walked a couple of miles.  Apple Music + the Tread is not such a bad thing.  It was actually pretty cool.  I’m understanding what it’s like to be strong.  Great feeling!

Okay, so going into week 6 was tough for me.  For the first three days, (of the 6th week) I was wanting to cheat.  I really don’t know why.  After the third day, it was fine.  I’m not sure what that was about.  The last weekend of the Challenge I was in Seattle — with my Best Friend — for the Garth Brooks Concert.  I was super scared I would cheat.  We ate glorious food, but I didn’t give in.  Unless, you consider the Coors Light that I drank at the concert.  I mean, who can say no to a beer at Garth?  I mean, really!  I never had a cheat meal.  I am probably the most proud of that.

As the Challenge is now over, I still have not gone crazy.  The Monday of my weigh in my co-worker was determined to make me my favorite dessert.  Her Pumpkin Roll-Up.  It is divine.  So I did have a piece of that, along with 1/2 of a Dutch Bros. Freeze and a slice of Tillamook Cheese.  It was all so good, however, what was weird and almost uncomfortable, was that I felt so full the rest of the day.  It had been a while since I felt like that.  Needless to say, I did not have dinner.

Pumpkin Roll
The Best Pumpkin Roll On The Planet

Dutch_Cheese

For the first time in my life I was mentally ready for this Challenge.  The hard part now, is not being so mental, if you will.  I am constantly asking myself–what will that do to my body if I eat that?  I’m not sure that is just something I will do from now on?  Will this go away?  Not sure.  It is a good tool, though.  I still have not had any bread and that is probably the one thing I am still not wanting.  The thought seems so filling…  In a not so good way.

You want to know what I missed the most??  C-O-F-F-E-E!!  You ask — Could you not drink coffee?  Yes, I could.  Black.  I don’t drink Black coffee.  I don’t like it.  So, why would I start drinking Black?  I put a little creamer in my coffee.  That’s how I like it.  This was my first Cup-O-Joe…

Coffee

Now that this has come to an end, why is it that I am thinking about the next Challenge?  The old Andrea would never think of that.  Here is to the next adventure!  Cheers!

Results You Ask?

In six weeks I lost 21.6 Pounds and 4.97% Body Fat.  I came in 2nd place and did beat my Trainer.

CF Bumper Sticker

Thanks Heath For All Of Your Help.  You Are So Appreciated.

 

 

Results.Faith.

UofW

Results?  What if you don’t get them?  You have waited a year and you leave with nothing.  You kind-of feel like you are back to square one.  It’s weird and so not what was expected.

As many of you know, after my “tumor surgery” I have to continue going to my Neurologist once a year.  It’s something that I like to do.  I like to just make sure all is well with me.  If it is not, my Doctor and I have talked about this, I know where we would be headed.  That too, is always on my mind at this appointment.

Before I get into any kind of details–I wanted to share with you my pictures:

1. This is me (obviously!) getting ready for my day.  How do you like that gown?; 2. This is my favorite IV guy.  I can’t give you his name, but he has been with me since day one.  The only one that I truly trust plugging needles into me.; 3. Needles plugged in. Ready for my MRI.  I’m not going to lie–last year, when I was filling out my paper work-you know that form that you have to check “YES” or “NO”? I remember it saying: Do you have tattooed eyeliner or lip liner?  That scared me last year because I knew I was getting that done.  I still remembered that.  It was still on the paper work.  In my mind I was like–do they really read this?  Am I going to be told I can’t have an MRI now, or what?  So, when my needle guy was doing his thing, I asked, “So, I noticed it on the paperwork that it asked if I have permanent eyeliner/lip liner…”  He says, “Oh, no, you don’t have that do you?  There will be flames coming out your eyes…”  I was like, “Really…?”  He says, “Of course not!  Sometimes it just gets a little hot.”  I had to tell the Radiologist, but guess what?  Nothing.  It didn’t get any hotter than anything else.  I did ask what happens if your lids do get hot, they said, you just go to a machine that is not as powerful.  Hmmm.; 4.  This is the MRI machine.  Pretty fancy, huh?  My body goes into it to my knees.  My Radiologist plays the best ’80’s music for me.  The great thing about my situation is that I have a “TEAM”.  It is all of the same people every time I come in.  They know me and I know them.  **It is super sad when you are waiting in Radiology and there are people around you that are so scared to have an MRI done.  Being claustrophobic would be awful.  I’m not, but I still do not like being confined like I am.  (Ha!  I did have to apologize to one of the Residents that was in on my surgery…) I have seen people scream, throw up, cry, throw things, etc.  The Team’s are so good at explaining the “open” MRI, to those folks.  Its still hard to see people so scared.  Trust me–I have been there!!; 5. Okay, this is the dreaded scale.  I hate this ridiculous machine.  You ask, “Why is that thing so big…”  It is for people that have wheel chairs.  I just hate it.  I mean who likes these??  They creep me out.  I never look at it.  It’s just gross.  Eww.; 6.  This is Chris and my “usie”.  We always do them when we finally get to Neurology.  We like these.  We have quite a few now.; 7. Okay, have you ever noticed that all plug-in’s in a hospital are upside down?  I have always wondered why.  I mean clearly it is not because a contractor made a mistake at every hospital that I have been too, right?  I finally Googled it, this is what I found:

Because if a cord or wire were to fall down on a partially plugged in right-side up outlet you would short out between the hot and the neutral. When the outlet is “upside down” in the above situation the wire would touch ground first.

Why are all the electrical outlets in hospitals upside down?

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8. This is my locker.  It is the only one I will use.  My favorite number is 3.  That started in 5th grade because of me, Nikki and Jamie.  Now it is because of Chris, Calvin and I.  So, 3X3 is 9 and that makes me happy.  I love the # 3; the more, the better.
Okay, as for my Results from last week:
I know a lot of you have been wondering, how did it go?  Honestly, I do not know.  I did not get one answer.  My husband and I left literally with no information.  I did not get to see my Doctor.  At all.  I saw someone that I had never met before.  That throws everything for a loop when you are dependent on your “TEAM”.  When you have an appointment in Neurology, you need to plan on being an hour to an hour an a half late to see your Doc.  The reason being is that most people need answers.  They are scared.  They bring the entire family in.  One member has a 3-Ring binder full of information that they have Googled and just need answers.  I get that.  I have been there.  Your appointment with a Neurologist is a half hour long.  Mine have always been longer.  That’s why I never complain when I do not get it on time.  You look around the waiting room, there are tears and people that are simply, flat scared.
This time was different.  I had to be in Radiology at 9:15, I was filling out my paperwork and they literally called my name.  It was that fast.  Usually is.  You do all of that and then you move to your next appointment.  Neurology was at 12:15.  Always is.  We didn’t get into the appointment until 3:35.  The receptionist felt so bad for us that she gave us free parking–which is actually very nice.  My Doctor never came in.  Either did his Assistant.  Again, when you are used to your TEAM, this makes it hard and scary.  Another lady came in.  She was looking at my images.  I’m not going to lie–Chris and I are pretty good at reading a brain MRI at this point.  She told us that my Doctor was extremely busy and she would be taking care of us.  We were like, okay…  She says, “Wow!  Your tumor is humungous.”  At first I did not freak out because I could see that the first set of images that she was looking at were right before my surgery.  I then say to her, “Yes, my tumor was the second largest one Dr. ___ has ever seen.”  She continues on by saying, “No it is still there.”  “You do know that it is wrapped around you carotid artery, right?  He couldn’t get all of it.”  My husband moves forward with that look–again.  I had hoped I would never see that look again.  Now, before you get really worried reading this–I am aware that there is tumor still there.  I am aware that it is wrapped around my carotid artery.  This is not new, news.  However, I had never heard it in that tone.  My Doctor OR his assistant would NEVER use the word HUMUNGOUS.  Did that freak me out??  Yes.  Bedside manner is key.  She then told me that she would be making an appointment for me to come back in 6 months.  Six months??  Honestly, I thought this was the appointment I was actually going to hear, I will see you in 5 years.  Okay, maybe 2 years.  Not 6 months.  That caught me off guard.  I said why?  She said, “That is when your Doctor wants to see you.”  In my head, I’m like, hmm that is weird, you never saw my Doc.  Of course, I say, “Okay.”  She left and came back with a piece of paper with my new appointment information.  October.  OCTOBER!!  We left.  We just left.  It was weird.  No answers.
*There was a point when Chris had put his head back to rest.  I got up to go to the bathroom.  I look down the hallway where we meet with my Doctor.  I see him scarfing down a salad.  He waves and says, Hi.  Of course, I wave back.  On my way back to my seat I am irritated.  I am a very patient person so I was telling myself, this to shall pass.  Get over it.  You have to wait.  I literally hear d a word from God.  (Again–there is a lot of speaking to me in this hospital…)  As I sat down he said, You need to wait.  This may not be your timing.  That hit me hard.  I was kind of put in my place.  I listened to that.  Not all is perfect; including my situation.   

 

“Don’t brag about tomorrow, since you don’t know what the day will bring.” – Proverbs 27:1

Faith. Life. Faith. Death. Faith.

 

It was back in the 80’s.  Later 80’s.  We were such good Friends.  He was older.  He had a girlfriend.   She was weird; but I was nice.  She was in my Ceramics class.  She never showed up.  But, whatever.  She didn’t last.  Our friends were pretty mutual.  We went to Football games in early high school.  My parents liked him.  My Dad thought he was pretty funny.  We each had a parent that drank.  A lot.  It was part of our life.  We both understood it.  Most didn’t understand it.  We only told the “stories” amongst ourselves.  We totally got each other.

Sophomore year.  Like 1988’ish–Ugghh, does that date me?  I thought he should date my Best Friend.  Would she go for it?  Why wouldn’t she?  She trusts me.  Most of the time.  Where would we put all of this together?  A football game?  A party?  I guess that would work.  I think it was actually a football game and then a party.  I’m sure it was something like that.

Homecoming was coming.  He broke up with his girlfriend.  They were not meant to be.  He liked my Best Friend.  Really liked her.  BUT, he really wasn’t a homecoming kind-of guy.  Would he go?  He did.  With my Best Friend.  She was dressed up so pretty in a dress.  He didn’t have time to get a tux.  But he looked nice.  Sweater and all.  They had a great time.  They started dating.  It was fun to watch.  It really was the way it was supposed to be.  God had that figured out–that’s for sure!

There was a couple of years of high school ups and downs.  Who didn’t have those?  Boyfriends, girlfriends, friends, parties, jealousy.  You name it; we all went through that.  Right?  If you didn’t you are lucky.  My two friends stayed together.  A LOT happened through the years with them.  We were in touch most of the time, but not always.  We always knew the other was okay.  Marriages happened.  Kids came.  Houses bought.  Life still happened.  We always knew where the other one was.  We always called when there was a problem.  The other could always help out.  Somehow; over the phone.  It always worked that way.

My best friend and I both grew up Catholic.  I went to St. Joe’s, she went to Holy Spirit.  St. Joe’s was the “classy” Catholic Church.  Old school.  It still is.  I still have very fond memories.  It was the one we all went to as kids.  Holy Spirit was the new Catholic Church.  The one that was “updated”.  It was built when I was like in the 8th grade.  It was on the other side of town.  We both felt like we belonged.  That was all we knew.  We sang hymns.  I still sing them at times.

Over the years, my best friend learned to love the Lord.  Her heart was so open to the Lord.  I really didn’t understand that.  As a Catholic, I do not remember learning the openness that she had.  I thought maybe she got that since she moved to California.  Were Catholic’s different in California?  Do the Priests surf there?  Maybe.  She actually found a different church.  A different faith.  It truly empowered her.  Her faith was awesome.  I wanted to have some of that.  How do you find that?  It scared me.

In the mean time, I moved to a different town.  Searching for something.  My best friend told me she was a Christian.  She loved her church.  They sang great music.  I pictured the music to be like rock-star music.  Like people would clap.  It would make you happy.  Smile.  But, wait.  We didn’t do that growing up.  Was it okay to experience that?  Was it okay to listen to that kind-of music in church?  I wasn’t sure.  I wasn’t sure I even wanted to try that.

Years later, both of our lives changed.  Dramatically.  My best friends husband–the one that I set her up with–was diagnosed with cancer.  Esophageal cancer.  It is considered that “old mans cancer”.  That was a knock down.  Really?  Did I just hear you right?  Cancer?  I mean, he always had stomach issues.  Back in the day I thought is was just because we drank.  A lot.  We were the cool party team.  Oh, no–he chews.  Has for years.  Was that what caused this?  Oh, I hope my kid never chews.  Ever.  He never smoked.  Well, not really.  It had to be the chew, right?  He just has to quit chewing.  Chemo will take care of everything.  Maybe just meds.  He never quit chewing.  It was something he just did.  We all knew it.  It’s hard to just quit anything.

It was October.  In 2006.  He was given 12 months to live.  How do you diagnose that?  Where does a time frame come from.  How do they know?  Well, Doctors know.  This is what they do, right?  Right?!  My thought process was this–this family has 12 months or 1 year to do Life.  Life.  They have two kids.  They work.  They are just about to go into a partnership with friends for a business.  This would help them out.  My Bestie would be able to help her husband with his time.  Stay with him when he gets sick.

I couldn’t go see him.  I get paralyzed thinking of death.  As a Catholic, one of the things I learned and always remember is that death is a good thing.  It’s a sacrament.  In a sence, you live your life fully, and then you die.  You wait to die.  It’s a very powerful thing.  I’m definitely not there yet.  I hope to be, at some point in life.  It is something you can’t get away from…  I think my best friend didn’t understand WHY, I didn’t come visit.  It made me sick to think about her husband–dying.  How could I be “normal” with their small children around.  Seems like I would cry and cry and cry.  I wouldn’t be able to stop.  I was actually obsessed with staying away.  They had/have great friends.  Very supported people around them.  I thanked God for that.  Daily.

I finally decided to go.  I was scared.  Would he die while I was there?  What if he did?  I went anyway.  It was my time.  I needed to…say goodbye??  Was that what I would do?  I hoped not.  I begged God to make this trip okay.  It was.  I learned so much.  As times were changing for this family, I got to watch and play with the kiddos as my best friend and her husband faced new challenges at the hospital.  While I was there.

My friend was gaining fluid all over his body.  I remember he lifted his shirt up and said, “Andrea, (funny thing–he always said “Andrea”, like Anjria-we still laugh about that) I look like I am pregnant.”  He did.  The worst part about that?  There was so much fluid in him that his skin was stretched out.  It was shiny.  It looked as if it was hard to bend an ankle.  Or a knee.  Or an elbow.  I asked if he was in pain, he said, “no, I’m just uncomfortable”.  Uncomfortable, hurts, right?

As I watched the kiddos, they went to the hospital to get some of that fluid drained.  He told me it was like 2, 2-liter bottles worth of fluid.  How does that happen?  I did learn that this is some what, of a normal thing at this stage.  I left two days later and he was full of fluid again.  Not as full as when I arrived, but he was shiny again.  That scared me.  Was this going to be a new “normal”.

My time in California was so memorable.  My best friend had become a Nurse.  She was so in love with her husband.  But taking care of him came first.  She was so good at it.  I envied her patience.  I wanted to be like that someday.  She always prayed.  In this time of such grief she was so spiritual.  She thanked God everyday for this life.  Hard or not.  She thanked him daily for her children.  Her faith, to this day, is something that she just knows is right.  It is the way you are supposed to live.  You trust Jesus AND his timing.  I still have a hard time with this.  I’m working on it.  Still.

She knew death was a possibility.  I’m not sure you are ever ready for something like death.  Of your husband.  The only man you have ever been with.  The father of your children.  He is so young.

I had called me best friend in July to make sure all was going well.  She was driving and gave her phone to her husband.  It was the last time I talked to him.  We talked about how life has been.  How are you feeling?  How are your kids?  Have you talked to your Dad?  As I told him, in tears, that I loved him and he told me he loved me to, he  kept asking why I don’t just fly down.  I couldn’t I was scared.  I just didn’t want to see him this way.  His voice was off.  It was like a whisper.  My last question to him?  “Can I ask you a question?  At this point, is cancer all you think about…”?  His answer?  “F**k no…”!!  We both laughed.  That made me feel so much better.  3 weeks later, I got that phone call.  From a good friend.  It was so hard for her.  She cried, I cried.  Is this it?  He was only 38.  His 1 year turned into a couple and a couple months…  So young.  God has plans for him.  Right?  I mean, he was a believer.

The funeral.  I didn’t go.  I couldn’t.  I wish I could have been a fly on the wall.  I wanted to see the love and feel the love.  Instead, I prayed.  And prayed.  From what I hear it was awesome.  He had a lot to do with that.

He talks to me often.  I will see a penny on the ground and when I get into my car Guns N Roses starts playing.  It is meant to be.  He always shows up.  Especially when I need him.  When the cat died.  He was there.  When the kid got his license.  He was there.  As usual.

Rest In Peace Joey William McGee.  Life does continue.  God shows us that.  Daily.  Sometimes, second by second.

I fly to California in about 6 weeks.  I get to hang out with my Bestie.  Kristie (Rothrock) McGee.  Now Ehlers.  Can’t wait…

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